He told me I was beautiful, that I deserved every beautiful thing life had to offer.
It’s not like I haven’t heard those words before. Its the way he said them to me, his eyes burning deep into mine assuring me he meant every word he said.
He told me to go out with him, that he had to take me some place nice. He said he needed just a moment alone in a beautiful space to soak in my beauty. My heart fluttered and I said yes.
He did take me somewhere nice. There I stood in the most beautiful outdoor restaurant I had ever laid eyes on. He had rented the whole space for him and I. The lights where dimly lit complimenting the beautiful garden of flowers surrounding us. I was in awe.
The night air was a bit chilly so he gave me his jacket before pulling out a sit for me on our exclusive table for two. We stayed there, under the watchful eyes of the crescent moon enjoying each other’s company while we ate food I couldn’t even pronounce. He wouldn’t stop looking at me and I loved the attention. He smiled, I smiled. He touched my face carful and said “I’d never hurt you” I believed it, I believed him.
After dinner he said, “let me take you home to make sure you’re safe”. I simply said “yes” because I wanted to enjoy his company a little longer.
We got to his car and like the gentleman he was he opened the door for me before getting in himself. We stayed there for a moment not moving just staring at each other, then he leaned in closer and kissed me ever so gently. It felt good so I kissed him back. I just wanted to know how he tasted.
He placed a hand on my thigh and I felt a little tingle. Things got heated and before he could raise his hand any further I pulled back breathless and ready to go home. His hands where still on my thigh moving higher. I held it to stop him, he looked at me, smiled and said “don’t be a tease”. I wasn’t trying to tease I just wanted to go home I thought. He pulled my seat back till my back was resting. He said “I want you”.
I said “I am not ready”.
He said “but you were a few seconds ago”.
I said “I just wanted a kiss”.
He said “I want more than a kiss, kisses are for boys and I am a man. I need something stronger”. I said “stop it. You are scaring me”
He said “I know you want this too. stop playin”.
I said “No I don’t want this. This has gone on far enough. Let go of me” he didn’t listen. He got on top of me and kissed my neck. I felt his hands everywhere and it made me sick. I struggled to get away but he was stronger.
“I am done playing these games with you Sarah. I want you and I’m going to have you. So be a good girl and comply”.
I was mortified, this couldn’t be the guy who showed me paradise in one night just a few minutes ago. This was a monster. I refused to comply.
“you can’t take what’s not yours” I said.
“it was mine the moment you agreed to go out with me”. And with that he was inside me, no protection nothing. Just raw, painful disgusting sex.
No that was not sex. That was rape.
I begged him to stop I told him it hurt. He didn’t listen. He just kept going. I begged and I cried, he made me feel sick. I gave up, I got quite, it was no use crying and begging, he wouldn’t stop till he was finished. I closed my eyes to distract myself from the pain and hurt. I hated hearing his satisfied grunts and moans, they made me feel even more sick.
After what felt like forever he shivered and let out a low growl and I knew he was done. He didn’t even have the decency to spill his seed anywhere else. He got up, moved to his seat and with a nasty smile said “don’t act like you didn’t like it”. I couldn’t speak, I felt numb, I felt dirty and cheap. Most of all I felt used.
“Just take me home” I said. “with pleasure” was his response.
But isn’t it ironic though, how in just a few hours one man single handedly showed me the faces of an angel and the devil.